Saturday, September 19, 2009

Living in limbo

Today's post has nothing to do with either real or model horses--sorry!

I really want to thank everyone for the supportive comments and emails that followed my Worrying post. Seth is still unemployed but he spent all of last week working with recruiters and interviewing. A couple positions look very promising, and it seems likely that he'll be back to work before the severance pay runs out. I am trying my best just to take each day as it comes and not get too wound up about all the what ifs. That's not an easy task for a worrier like me, but mostly I'm succeeding.

I am also trying not to worry too much over my little old lady dog who has suddenly, sadly started acting her age. Poor Abbie. I know that fifteen and a half is very old for a dog, but the rapid decline in her physical condition has been startling nonetheless. There will be no more pictures of her flying over jumps or swimming in pools. She doesn't have the hind end strength for those things anymore. She's not sick or unhealthy really, she's just old and wobbly.
Unfortunately there's no cure for old. I hate that our time together is running short, but rather than obsess over the things I can't change, I'm trying to focus on the time we have left. Abbie is still alert and happy. She doesn't seem to be in pain. I've been giving her lots of extra attention. We go on short walks and once a week, I take her to the dog park. She doesn't run or play, but she seems to enjoy walking and sniffing and interacting with other dogs. It's a good life for her still, and I am grateful for every single day.
So, that's how it's been this week. I'm taking each day as it comes and trying not to get too far ahead of myself. Tomorrow I'll be in Wellington, Colorado taking pictures and helping out at Trisha's schooling show. I'll try to post a few photos in the evening and should have a good show report ready for Monday morning.


  1. Just saying I'm thinking of you and Abbie..

  2. Jennifer, I hope Seth finds a position where he is happier than the one he had. These are indeed worrisome times.

    Your Abbie is a doll. Her face is very expressive. I'm so sorry to hear that she is suddenly showing her age. I wonder if she has DM? Our GSDs get this almost regularly with age. It's obvious she's a special dog to you, a "heart dog". I hope you have several more years together!