That week was scary, stressful and hard, but also, triumphant.
Sunday, June 8, 2025
My horse(s)
When I got Olive, I wrote a post about her every day for a week. It was All of Olive Week.
I planned to do the same for Sage, but somehow, it hasn't worked out.
This isn't Sage's fault. She is a bright, sweet, funny baby, and I've enjoyed working with her a lot.
But she doesn't feel like my horse.
Part most of the problem - obviously - is the timing. Olive's first colic and surgery happened one year ago this week. 
Even though I am trying really hard to stay in the present, part of me - and not a small part - is living in the ICU with Olive.
With the help of so many people, Olive and I made it through.
It didn't last very long - not even eight months - but that time with Olive was everything.
She was - and still is - my horse.
I don't know what Sage is yet.
She might be my horse, or she might be the horse I am training for someone else. I guess only time will tell.
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I lost my heart horse to colic as well, and it took a long time with my next horse to feel like he was "mine". I hope you enjoy whatever stage this is and keep sharing about Sage - she is beautiful!
ReplyDeleteSadly (and no offense meant to you Jennifer), it sounds like you're having buyer's remorse by comparing Sage's behavior to Olive's!! (I hope not!)
ReplyDeleteIs it possible maybe that you should have allowed yourself to grieve Olive a little longer before moving to a new adventure?? (After all--it's only just been 6 months since her unfortunate loss!)
No one is ever going to replace Olive in your heart seeing as she was your once in a lifetime true love --but you also mentioned wanting to go in a different direction in the future too!!
Seeing as Sage hasn't been in your possession for a month yet, hope you will give her a chance maybe to learn to love her in a different way than you did Olive!!
From what you've shared of her so far, she sounds like she's a lovely little filly! Maybe with a little more time, she'll also develop little mustang quirks that you can't live without!! Please don't give up on her too soon!!
Please, please give this lovely pretty young mare a chance to conquer your heart! Of course, she can't turn into another Olive (and I know that you know that, too!! No offence!!!), but this is Sage and I hope she will - given time - worm herself into your hear. I love her already and can't wait about her adventures with you!!!
ReplyDeleteKirsten
Give it time. Your grief is still fresh and your heart might still not be open to a new horse that is not Olive. I think though Sage's sweetness will win you over and you'll find she has a lot to offer.
ReplyDeleteYour feeling is perfectly normal, I've never quite felt like Excalibur was my horse and I'm still not in this set of mind with Kalinka. Only time heal the wounds...
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