This morning I dreamed that Seth and I were on a road trip to some remote mountain town. We stopped to stretch our legs, and when we went to get back in the car, we realized Darcy was gone.
We started calling her, "Darcy! Darcy! Darcy Doooooodle!"
Nothing.
Darcy liked to range a bit, but she had really good recall. This wasn't like her. I started to get worried.
We walked and we walked and we called and we called. Eventually, we got to a town. I showed her picture to some people and asked if they had seen her. To my surprise, one man said yes and gave some very specific and complicated directions as to where she was.I was so excited. Even though she'd only been gone for a little while, I already missed her so much. I could not wait to see her cute face and her happy little nub tail.The road to her was long. As we were walking, I started to awaken. I realized that we were never going to find her because she wasn't missing. She's dead. I woke up with tears running down my cheeks.Then - before I could even sit up - my phone pinged. It was Carol telling me she'd had a flat tire on her way to the airport and missed her flight. She's coming to Denver for the Tuesday funeral of our friend, Chris, and was supposed to arrive around 8:30 this morning. The current best estimate is 5:30 PM if we're lucky. |
| Carol, Jennifer, Chris and Citlalli in 2023 |
So, anyway, that's how my solstice is going so far.Today's prompt for the Yuletide Cheer Photo Chaos Challenge is Solstice Pony.I have a lot of ponies, but I chose to use my crabby zebra for this one. This represents the way I feel today, angry swears and all.
Hopefully, Carol will make it onto the plane, and we can toast Chris and be happy/sad together tonight. I'm not counting on it, though. This has been a crappy year, and the hits just keep coming.
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Oh wow Jennifer! How I wish that we lived close by so that I could offer you a hug!! This had tears in my eyes!
ReplyDeleteDon't you just *hate* that??!! Made me think of my immediate family. Everyone has passed away now but every once in awhile, I'll have vivid dreams about them!! Being a single person, I've really come to dislike the holidays because there's no one left to share things with!!
Shoot!! Even ny local hobby "friends " and church acquaintances don't remember me during this time of year--but that's OK!!
At least you have family/friends who LOVE you!! It is so much fun to read about your get togethers!! Hopefully Carol *will* make it to the airport and you will connect with her (even if it's for such a sad occasion!) and nothing else will go wrong for the remaining few days of this year!
Is it OK for me to wish you and your family a MERRY CHRISTMAS anyway?? I want to be optimistic that the NEW YEAR will be better for you than this year has been!! Remember--whatever doesn't break you is designed to make you stronger--and you're one of the strongest persons that I know!! MERRY CHRISTMAS!!
It's always okay to wish me a merry Christmas. I appreciate your kind words, and although this has been a hard day/month/year, I am optimistic about 2026. It's the Year of the Horse. It has to get better!
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