NaMoPaiMo has been a great distraction, but this month has been hard.
In addition to the ongoing national horror show in Washington, I am dealing with tough situations in both California and Colorado.
Our house survived the Eaton fire, but is not currently habitable.
Eaton Canyon looks like this.
My beloved hometown is mostly gone.
And my Mom... I don't know how it's possible, but we've been put on notice that her current situation - which had seemed so stable in November - is anything but. I honestly don't know what we're going to do next. It feels hopeless.
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| Mom and Sally in Eaton Canyon, 1992 |
I miss Olive so much it hurts.
The search for the next forever horse is ongoing, but there is short term relief on the horizon. I thought he would arrive this weekend, but nothing is that easy. There have been complications, and it will probably be another week at least.
Can it just be February already? This has been a really hard month, and I am ready for it to be over.
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Your 2024 was horrific and January just seems like a condensation rehash. I'd love to say 'it can't get any harder.' My heart does say that and wishes you well and prays for you. My brain,... comes up with rental mailbox addresses for dealing with caregiving mail. Good luck.
ReplyDelete*hugs* (the palomino is a cutie) -KRistie
ReplyDeleteHuge hugs. So so much all at once. That furry beauty with white in the last pic, I can’t wait for you to get to share your adventures. I think about you and olives stories while I daily walk Aura, on these freezing days. I’m looking forward to see your snow days with your new pal.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry your Everything is so hard right now. What a miracle that the house was spared! I hope the golden boy is everything you hope for when he finally arrives. In the meantime, if it's not too cold, maybe give Kaffi a carrot and think of Iceland.
ReplyDeleteBetsy in WI
Sending you lots of hugs, Jennifer.
ReplyDeleteBig up to you, you're so strong!
ReplyDelete2024 was a terrible year for us as well, and January 2025 hasn't been any better. *Hugs*
ReplyDeleteLots of love. Hoping these last few days of January pass quickly and quietly. Here’s to the oncoming spring, with newness and regrowth. 🌌🌄
ReplyDeleteI didn't think anything could be worse than 2024, and 2025 said "hold my beer". I'm so sorry, Jennifer, it just sometimes seems an endless uphill slog in heartache. We're still evacuated and the timetable suggests weeks or months, not days, until we can return. I'm so glad your house made it, though. If I can be of any help to you out here, please do let me know. I'm driving up to the Dena every day to clean out more ash or help a friend sift through rubble. Community, both online or face to face, is what gets us through these times, Altadena is all about community. Just give me a shout out is there's something that needs boots on the ground.
ReplyDeleteYou are so right about the ongoing horror show in Washington!
ReplyDeleteWe are about to have an election, too, with the extremely right-wing "Nazi" party AfD supported by Elon Musk. I can't believe it - they are spouting total nonsense and distorting facts and history, but a lot of people don't seem to mind and inclined to vote for them anyway.
I'm very sorry to hear about your mom, your house & hometown.
We have been deep into the stuff about care with our mother nowadays, as well, the costs have more than doubled during one single month and we are still pretty much helpless about which sum will be paid for (if at all) by three different parties.
I'm hoping this handsome gelding will brighten your life when he finally arrives!
Kirsten