Jimmy Carter died the same day as Olive, December 29, 2024. Today he is honored with a National Day of Mourning.
The fires in California continue to burn unabated, and the list of lost places grows and grows. I have spent the last two days mourning houses, businesses, restaurants, ranches and trees.
It feels like my entire childhood has gone up in flames. Nothing will ever be the same.
I miss my pony so much.
Olive was the funniest, sweetest, weirdest little horse.
Today is the National Day of Mourning, and I am definitely doing my part.
She was absolutely perfect for me.
I hoped to spend at least another decade with her, maybe two if we were really lucky.
I wanted to grow old with her.
I can't believe I will never see or touch her again.
I am sad and angry and sad again.
I feel so cheated that I will never see her sweet, wise, little face sprinkled with white hairs.
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I'm so, so sorry for your loss. Olive was so special.
ReplyDeleteGrief cannot be rushed through or minimized. Some losses are too big to just "get over" and Olive leaves a huge hole behind. The grief is equal to the love, and she was so, SO loved. I think it's good to recognize that and claim as much space and time as you need. Thanks for continuing to share; I'm sure there are thousands of photos and stories we never saw.
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This post actually has me in tears as I read it!! PLEASE know Jennifer, that your readers grieve Olive's loss along with you! How we will miss hearing about the adventures you had with her!! I am so so sorry for your loss!!
ReplyDeleteI believe Jimmy would understand. Certainly I would like to add my voice to those that grieve. The pain is terrible; but there's no regret for what you had together.
ReplyDeleteYou shared your wonderful pony with us on this blog and many of your friends in person as well. She was the peoples pony and we all feel a huge whole in our hearts but nothing will compare to your sadness because she was your long awaited heart horse all of your own. I am so sorry she was taken from you. Your time together was magical and that can never be taken away.
ReplyDeleteI’m hurting for you.
ReplyDeleteI am so, so sorry about Olive. I've been seeing the posts and am just horrified after everything you have tried to do for her this year. You were the best person for her and she was dearly loved. So sorry. It really is very unfair.
ReplyDeleteWe’re still crying, too.
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