Hard choices

The last six months of my mother-in-law's life was really hard, not just for her, but for everyone in her orbit.

I thought that things would be, not better, but easier after she passed, and they were for maybe a week. 

Since then, however, life has been really complicated, not just at home but also at work and the barn.

I have this whole list of things I need to do but have been putting off until life is easier.  

Yesterday I realized life might not ever get easier. As much as I didn't want to, it was time to tackle the to-do list. One of the first items on my agenda was canceling BreyerFest.

This was hard. I love BreyerFest. I think everyone who is part of the hobby should attend BreyerFest at least once, and probably twice since there's no way you can do everything you want to do in a single year. 

I can honestly say that the last BreyerFest I attended was one of the most fun weeks of my entire life.

If my vacation time, money and energy were unlimited, I would be happy to go to BreyerFest every year.

Sadly, that is not the case.

As much as I love BreyerFest, it's always a long, hard, expensive, hot week, the kind of vacation that requires a second vacation immediately after for recovery.

This year I want - no, I need - something easier.

So yesterday, I cancelled one vacation and booked another.

I know it was the right decision. As soon as it was done I felt better, lighter. Still, it's bittersweet. I will really miss being part of the Resin Renaissance staff, and I am especially sad to be missing time with so many of my friends, especially Anne and Anne, two of my favorite people who I don't see nearly often enough.

I hope everyone who attends this year's BreyerFest has the best time. Please take lots of pictures for me - and everyone else - who will be attending the event from the comfort of their homes.